Those of you who have followed me for a while will know that my marriage broke up around this time last year. I thought now would be a good time to do an update on how the last year has been.
I will warn you this may go on a bit…get comfy, here goes.
I have to honestly say that this year has flown by. It’s been a strange one. I haven’t done an awful lot about changing my life and being the person I want to be. I have however spent a lot of time just being. Thinking about what I want to do next. Just enjoying being by myself, doing things I want to do, or doing nothing at all if I want, with no one relying on me . It’s hard to explain.
My ex on the other hand has done the opposite. He has a new little family, he welcomed a little baby girl into the world last week. It’s crazy how quickly things can change so much. I wish him all the best.
Just shows us splitting was for the best. I’m sure we are both much happier people than we were a year ago.
Don’t get me wrong I have some sad moments over the last year, but not once have I regretted the decisions I made.
If something isn’t right, it isn’t right and nothing will change that.
So a year ago I wrote End of One Chapter and Beginning of Another and here I am a year later facing yet another new chapter. Again not knowing what it will hold or where it will take me, but this time full of excitement and enthusiasm and ready to start living.
I needed this year to just relax in a sense, no pressure to move on. The split was a drastic enough change for one year, never mind anything else. I don’t think the anxious me could have coped with changing too much. However, seeing that my anxiety isn’t causing me anywhere near as much trouble at the moment, I think now is the time to really switch it all up. It may take another year but I will do it!
In last years post I spoke about selling the house, that didn’t end up happening, it just made sense for me to stay here for a bit. I planned to stay here for a few more years but do you know what? One is enough. I have coped pretty well on my own, a lot better than expected, I honestly thought I was going to be so scared but nope, I have been fine. I mean I’m not great at the whole housekeeping side of it, but that is irrelevant.
So now I really am ready to sell up. I can’t wait!
I really don’t know where I will go next. I will probably stay in the area for now but I would love to go and live somewhere else, even just for a bit. I need to be somewhere with a bit more going on than the Borders. I have been looking at along the South Coast of England, boy is it expensive though.
Guess I just need to focus on getting this house sold and then go from there.
I’m really looking forward to what the future holds for me now, and of course documenting it all here!
Look out for posts about the journey I’m about to start.